Self-motivation problems

This is what gets hard in the Peace Corps – waking up every day without anyone checking up on you or your work and knowing your day is going to be random as hell – you are just happy DOING things, doesn’t matter anymore their content. Keeping busy helps not think about how much you miss your family and life as you knew it. You are also in charge of your own schedule. Your self-motivation goes up and down though so your days are as such. For example, today I have a meeting with the mayor and other municipality members at 4pm. Until then, what do I do? I can’t say I want to do much else than just lounge – maybe go for a run when the heat dies down. Today I lack motivation. Today will be harder. I will need to push myself to get out of my room and talk to people. There’s always something I could be doing – I could be at the health post, but I’m kind of useless there until my projects start going, I could be outside reading on the hammock about health stuff self-educating myself, but I don’t really feel like it, I could be doing house visits but I don’t feel well-prepared for that (Peace Corps trains you to an extent – they train you more so to deal with whatever gets thrown at you, the idea, not so much the material of health). I know it comes in handy almost every day though. Anyways, time to go get my shit together and face the music. Pajamas aren’t cute at 12pm.

                You know, the weird thing is that by the time I come home, I bet I’ll be thinking, “man what a good day.” Have you met the ups and downs of the Peace Corps? Here they are, ha!