The trick!

It is so bittersweet being here in Peru. Tears are falling down my cheeks but my head rises, jaw clenched, as I go home today.

The sunset is orange. It's hot but the windows are open and the breeze is amazing.

Today I am yearning for a hug from my friends. That's it. I just want to be with them. I don't care if it's for a second.

I feel like I'm going to throw up, I want it so bad.

It's not going to happen though so I better get over it. And fast because I'm going to get to site in 30 minutes here.

2 years is a long time to be away from loved ones. It really is. I've taken the "ignorance is bliss" route because sometimes it does feel like this is just a drop in the ocean. Sometimes.

I usually don't get like this but this is normal. I'm a suppresser. For some reason I have trouble letting people see me vulnerable, gotta be in control 24/7.

This feeling really is rare. I am not depressed. I just know what it is to miss someone intensely. This is signature Peace Corps feeling.

Man the sky looks unreal. Pinks and grays and baby blue. We're finally getting to my site and I can smell the mom's cooking.

Dairon sees me get out of the car and greets me with a hug in site. Jordy comes to ask where I've been, if I want to play soccer. I give them both caramelitos. They run off happy.

I'm okay now. Love fixes everything. Any kind. Love's the trick!